weeeeeenks.. XD

wow.. ang drama naman ng mga post ko dito.. haha.. hmmm.. settled na naman yung samin ng bf ko e.. simula nung maging open ako sa kanya.. as in naging close talaga kame.. communication means a lot.. panu ba? dapat iddelete ko lahat ng posts ko dito e kaso sayang naman, explanation yun ng mga acts ko before.. saka marami nang nangyari since my last post here, nagbago halos lahat.. o ngayon ko lang na-realize yung mga bagay na hindi ko nakikita noon.. pero natatakot pa rin ako na baka mangyari ulit yung dati.. ayoko nang paikutin yung buhay ko sa isang bagay lang.. sa isang tao to be exact.. at ayoko nang maging emo ulit.. ahaha..

tinanong niya ako kagabi kung mahal ko ba talaga siya.. wow, at least nasasabi ko na yung ng walang hesitation.. yep, this time, im sure.. drama! XD

first week sa trabaho..

hmmm.. expected ko na naman talaga yun na ma o op talaga ako paminsan minsan.. hmmm.. be professional na lang.. saka alam ko magegets ko rin ng smooth yung accounting process ng goldilocks.. hindi naman biglaan yun.. it needs time.. bahala na si Lord sakin.. at least may pinagkakaabalahan ako ngayon.. mas ok na 'to kesa isipin ko ng isipin yung bf ko.. mas nakaka stress siya kesa sa work ko.. XD paubaya na lang lahat sa taas.. ^_^

still up..

bukod sa nakikipagmatigasan ako sa kapatid ko para sa laptop na 'to e ayaw ko pa talagang matulog.. wala lang.. alam ko kasi mamimiss kong magblog pag pumasok na 'ko for work.. mamimiss ko rin ang katamaran ng internet at ang mga ideas na binibigay niya sakin.. bakit katamaran? sa net kasi ako natutong maging tamad lalo na sa mga assignments ko before.. haha.. hmmm.. ayoko na nga isipin yung love love na yan.. ayoko na maging possessive ulit.. hmmm.. kalma lang.. kung nanjan e di nanjan.. di kailangan mag apura or ma-stress.. bahala na si God.. anu pa ba? surf-surf lang ako dito.. stalking some in fb.. surfing google.. scrolling tumblr.. listening to youtube.. this is life.. :D

yun ulit..

alam ko na kulang samin.. TIME.. together.. alone.. with each other.. time para makapag-usap.. to update things between us.. oo nga, kailangan ng isang relationship ng space pero grabeng space naman binibigay namin sa isa't isa..

nobela

ngumiti kahit na nahihirapan..

the magic's gone

i think i fell out of love.. i dont know.. or maybe  im not really in it.. i dont know.. my heart's telling me to stop to avoid more pain but my mind's saying i've already invested a lot.. or im just being unsatisfied for what i have now.. siguro nasanay lang ako sa mga bagay na sweet.. na magpapakilig sa'kin.. at dahil sa hindi ko na siya nararamdaman ngayon.. o masyado lang akong nag-iisip.. o hindi ko lang talaga siya gusto simula pa lang.. bakit ba hindi ako sigurado sa sarili ko? sa nararamdaman ko.. kapag may doubt ba ibig sabihin mali na? na dapat wag ko nang ipagpatuloy? siya kaya? ano kayang nasa isip niya ngayon.. natatakot din akong ipakita sa kanya itong side ko na 'to.. so melancholic, ang lagi niyang sinasabi sa attitude ko.. i want to hold things lighter.. lighter.. lighter..
at hanggang ngayon hindi ko pa rin alam kung ano ba talaga plano ko sa love life ko.. do i really love him? does he really loves me? am i just over thinking? :/

Goldilocks

May work na 'ko! yey.. thank You Lord.. kahit hindi ganun kataas agad yung position.. willing naman akong magwork what the work is searching.. hope so.. sana magustuhan ko yung work and more patience..smile na lang.. :)

paulit ulit

parang mas ok pa talaga nung single ako.. o namimiss ko lang talaga siya.. bakit kasi hindi na lang kami pwedeng magkasama araw araw or at least makita ko man lang siya.. napakumplikado naman talaga nitong pinasok ko.. at ngayon hindi na ako sure kung gusto ko pang lumabas.. wala naman talaga akong planong seryosohin 'to.. kaya siguro ako nahihirapan ngayon e mukhang sineseryoso na talaga nga puso ko.. mahal ko naman siya e.. ayoko lang humantong na naman ako dun sa point na pati sariling buhay ko pabayaan ko na dahil sa pagmamahal na yan.. hmmm.. eto na ata pinakamahirap na subject.. ang usaping pag-ibig.. napaka-unpredictable kasi e.. hayyy..

Dear Megaworld

sana ikaw na.. please.. i want a job..

The Law of Attraction

Alam ko naman ang law of attraction weh.. pero umiiral na naman ang pagiging negative thinker ko at safe sider.. hmmm.. kelangan kong maging positive thinker ulet.. at siyempre paniwalaan lahat ng gusto kong mangyari.. Eto na nga ba ang sinasabi ko e.. kapag wala ka talagang plano sa buhay mo.. hayyy.. Lord help me..

emotional karma/suicide

ayan.. nakakarma ka na ng tuluyan.. sino ba naman kasi nagsabi sayo na patulan mo? hindi pwedeng dahil bore ka lang gagawin mo na ang isang bagay.. mali na naman ata ang calculations mo.. ata? meaning hindi ka sigurado.. o napasubo ka lang talaga sa mga pinaggagawa mo.. at the end of the day pakunsuwelo na lang sa’yo yung mga katagang AT LEAST I’VE TRIED.. and still trying.. when will you stop? kapag super kumplikado na ulit lahat ng sitwasyon? bakit? kung ihihinto mo ba ngayon e hindi ba kukumplikado ang sitwasyon? tama nga yung sinabi sakin ni W nun.. Never make a decision if you’re too happy or too sad.. Now I’m too bored.. and wala akong balak maging miserable ulet.. not for now.. not until kaya ko na ulit mag-isa.. 

I can live without you.. I just don’t want to..

May girlfriend na siya

may girlfriend na yung super crush ko.. meh kirot pa nang konti.. pero i shouldn't be this way.. feeling this feeling anymore.. hahaha.. besides the fact na mas nauna nga akong nagkabf e.. but im happy for him.. kahit na di siya sakin napunta.. haha.. hayyy.. forever goodbye na lang talaga.. hope someday we can be friends again.. hayyy.. moving forward.. :)

yes!

im a cat.. :P

wonders..

i wonder what should be happening now if i was never got sick.. i wonder how would it last if i just continued that routine.. im wondering now WHAT IF..

what if i never saw him that day..

what if i chose a different set of friends..

what if i never talked to him from that day he asked my bestfriend’s number..

what if i never told him her name..

what if i never get the chance involving myself into his world..

what if i just get my eyes on my books and not on him..

maybe i graduated one year earlier.. maybe i’d have my license now as a CPA.. there are many things i keep asking myself..

not that im blaming that guy who’s seated in front of me during Financial Accounting Part 2 class on my second semester, being a second year college student..

i just wondered what if?

then my thoughts whispered to me„,

after all you graduated..

after all you’re taking the board exam few months from now..

 after all you’ve learned a lot of things..

that failing doesn’t mean losing..

that doesn’t mean defeat..

it takes a wound for a soldier to become stronger..

you’ve learned how to let go..

and you’re moving on..

he’d always have a piece of your heart.. although he doesn’t know, you’ll remember him teaching you those lessons that changed you for better..

that you’ll be the best that you can be..

so help me God.. :)

i miss something

did i really miss the chance to see you in a bliss

didn't i try to be with you for a while

did i dropped it out to give way to my pride

or i just have to lose it all to earn

to be broken so that i can bring back the pieces you've scattered..

//.~

connected..

they're all connected.. ^_^

blogger

natutuwa naman ako sa bago 'kong blogsite.. ahehe.. ang cute.. parang dito, im free to express myself.. pwede akong mag emo na hindi nakikita ng iba kasi wala naman silang pake sa site na 'to... ahaha.. peace.. 

let's celebrate.. life! :)

never again

the scenery of heartaches and pain..

sigh

another day of chances..

edited

more edits later.. have to go.. *winks*

I curse you for being so sweet and so kind...

and i can't get you out of my mind
now i know that you're a dangerous kind
and your smile is tattooed on my mind


♥.♥


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