wonders..

i wonder what should be happening now if i was never got sick.. i wonder how would it last if i just continued that routine.. im wondering now WHAT IF..

what if i never saw him that day..

what if i chose a different set of friends..

what if i never talked to him from that day he asked my bestfriend’s number..

what if i never told him her name..

what if i never get the chance involving myself into his world..

what if i just get my eyes on my books and not on him..

maybe i graduated one year earlier.. maybe i’d have my license now as a CPA.. there are many things i keep asking myself..

not that im blaming that guy who’s seated in front of me during Financial Accounting Part 2 class on my second semester, being a second year college student..

i just wondered what if?

then my thoughts whispered to me„,

after all you graduated..

after all you’re taking the board exam few months from now..

 after all you’ve learned a lot of things..

that failing doesn’t mean losing..

that doesn’t mean defeat..

it takes a wound for a soldier to become stronger..

you’ve learned how to let go..

and you’re moving on..

he’d always have a piece of your heart.. although he doesn’t know, you’ll remember him teaching you those lessons that changed you for better..

that you’ll be the best that you can be..

so help me God.. :)